Today I just felt uninspired, not motivated to do anything. This leads me to feel guilty for being lazy, which then leads me to go do something, half-heartedly. While halfway through the activity I feel I’m wasting time, which then causes me to feel depressed. This cycle goes on for a while until I break it with something meaningful or the weekend comes.
Over the years I’ve noticed this usually comes when I have everything under control. I try to remind myself to always look at the big picture but take pleasure in the small wins. So on these days when I'm uninspired and not motivated, I tell myself, GOOD JOB, all is well. and pick up a pint of ice cream.
I’ve picked up an audiobook recently that I’m enjoying called Atomic Habits by James Clear. One particular quote comes to mind when I’m in this funk. “All big things come from small beginnings. The seed of every habit is a single, tiny decision. But as that decision is repeated, a habit sprouts and grows stronger. Roots entrench themselves and branches grow. The task of breaking a bad habit is like uprooting a powerful oak within us. And the task of building a good habit is like cultivating a delicate flower one day at a time.” So, even though I'm doing a task that is half-hearted and feels meaningless at the time, it is working towards sometimes bigger. So I just soldier on.
Noting worth sharing today, just a feeling of BLAH. Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe something will come to mind to write about while I’m on a long run around the Lake. Post a comment below if there is a topic about running, Airbnb, military, workouts, life, in general, you wanna talk about. This trying to write a blog every day is getting hard when my ideas are running out of shit to write about.
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